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My Blog, to share as I wish....Vent, rant, cry, ask questions (I am insatiably curious) or just give ground to the many feelings and emotions I sometimes have. I am brutally honest, upfront, and very expressive. Constructive criticism always welcomed; varying opinions welcome ..Rude, crude judgemental non-necessary comments; will be deleted and banned. This is my escape; please don't dump your crap here...Everyone else is welcome to read, share, or just leave a smile...
For the time being, I am escaping here to write about some unfortunate feelings, emotions, and things I am dealing with.....It is for me....I may throw in something unexpected, like a poem, or some silly rambling...But for now, my escape is for me, and thanks to those that offer a kind word.....
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Things I Want to Know
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Posted:Oct 15, 2011 12:41 pm
Last Updated:Nov 3, 2011 2:49 pm
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It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know
if you will risk
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me
what planets are
squaring your moon...
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.
It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.
I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”
It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the .
It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know
if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.
I didn't write this; I wish I had. This is the person I want to be; this is the person I want to be with.
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A day late.....
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Posted:Oct 2, 2011 5:49 pm
Last Updated:Oct 15, 2011 12:41 pm
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And WHY did none of my friends tell me what I was missing at McDonalds??
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Quite Blog
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Posted:Sep 25, 2011 8:09 pm
Last Updated:Jan 21, 2012 7:35 am
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And again, thanks for the emails, the texts, the messages; checking on me.
Yes, my blog has been quite; and while I have visited a few, I seem to just not have had the zeal and energy for the blogs lately; even forgoing the HNW that I was so excited about. I cant even seem to find the words to respond when I do visit a blog.
But; Yea.....Finally........Able to smile; genuinely smile; and be so very thankful at the things that my journey opened in me.
Maybe I;ll blog on that, one day...For now; I'll continue to peek in on friends blogs; still not able to always comment. I just don't seem to have "words" these days....LOL
But; Yes.....finally able to accept and have a better understanding of things, thanks in essence to the "other woman" involved in my stories. We have laughed, grieved, cried, cursed, shared, and lifted each other up the last few weeks. And last week? We both had big changes take place.....We both managed to pull each other through the darkness, into the light, out and onto the other side....
And, as I spent a most amazing weekend with a man, being wined, and dined and romanced in ways I have never experienced, I felt the most overwhelming gratitude for my journey; for the things I learned; for the core of who I am my journey helped me to discover....for the security and confidence I gained in who and what I am as far as my sexuality goes. And for that?? Yes, it was worth the pain that went with it.
So; I find myself again, at a most unique place. Looking, seeking, wanting, needing......but so sure of who I am while doing that.....
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A BIG thanks
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Posted:Sep 12, 2011 6:44 pm
Last Updated:Sep 25, 2011 7:55 pm
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And now, a BIG  to yet another dear friend that has also helped me, during her time of grief.....
And to gemstoneeyes and
and to the others that called, and texted, and IM'd....but may prefer to stay anonymous....
I cannot say how much the encouragement has meant.....
And yes;;;;; TODAY has been a new day.....
I'm still gonna have some grief; some sadness.....mainly now, for the realization that I was sent to offer a hand to a drowning man.....and he chose drowning. Much, much more has come to light.....and how sad it is.....for him....
Why would a millionaire have to resort to stealing?? Why would an incredibly sensual man have to resort to playing such games??
Who knows......His loss, in so many ways......
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THIS is true friendship
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Posted:Sep 12, 2011 2:58 pm
Last Updated:Sep 16, 2011 2:11 pm
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2734602 To FactoryE...
Now THAT is what true friendship is all about....
It it doesnt post the link, Go to [BehindMyBlues] blog and read it....
You know what they say;;;;; with friends like that......
I WOULD HAVE NEVER SURVIVED THE LAST FEW WEEKS!!!!!
Thank you!!!!!
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